Every twenty-nine and a half days heralds a New Moon: the liminal space between the now retreating and newly beginning cycles, where Luna is dark and receptive as soil. The mutable earth sign Virgo relates to the body, digestion and the processes of integration and synthesis. Mercury (communication, insight), the traditional ruler of Virgo, marks its upcoming retrograde path through Libra (relationships) on Sunday. Embodiment on earth happens in/as/through relating: to others, to our environment, to information, to ourselves and the sacred.
I think of the story of a Swedish duck farmer as poetically portrayed in the PBS series, The Mind of a Chef. His well-loved and carefully-tended flock produces meat of unprecedented quality. In the episode, he also expresses his deepening pain over investing in and nurturing animals he must inevitably slaughter. He admits, somewhat tenderly, that he cannot numb or adjust to the worsening ache of being both care-taker and under-taker to his beloved ducks. The farmer remains open and consciously connected to his work, the animals and, ultimately, his humanity. His devotion and personal integrity express a high potential of Virgo energy, as does the discernment and commitment to quality of the chef who sources duck from this farmer.
Perhaps we mostly believe that human beings inherently understand and practice love. (I think that) I think that this is true. And I also know that to learn and survive socially, we are repeatedly pressured to bury, compromise, and negotiate that loving. We often internalize a hierarchy where closeness (family, nation) and sameness (human, similar physical traits) equate to worthiness of being loved, or at least most loved. We also learn to think of love in terms of only positive or pleasurable experiences. A picture emerges of transacting a scarce resource, where love is only given to well-known individuals with the expectation of a return on investment of equal or greater value.
Consider the phrase "falling in love" and the senses that arise: a physical pull, weight moving through space, gravity. Love requires an atmosphere of presence to breathe. Life is energy and everything is in motion; even the particles of an apparently solid object hum and vibrate. Do you feel where this path is leading? We are the universe embodied with the same patterns found everywhere beyond. We know we are love because we can never fully grasp or explain the intricacy of our being. Why does a flower unfurl in velvety petals, mounting in richness and radiance of color as you near the center of the bloom? And why the softness and amiable scent? After all there are other, more plain and direct ways to attract a bee.
When we see the independent reality of existence we are seeing beauty because of its "just is-ness", the apparent being for being's sake. Below the surface of beauty as a pleasant appearance is a mix of appreciation for the way something is and the wonder about why it is not some other way. The wonderment of being, the absurdity and exquisiteness of embodiment, the suggestion that life is (patterned on) love all somehow connects and reconnects back to these Partial Eclipse/New Moon energies. There is a slippery truth at the intersection of all of it, but I just have to put down my "pen." I will kneel in reverence and surrender to all that infinitely outdares language and understanding.
At the same time I may never stop seeking to get friendly and conversational with it. I want to dance my connection with the underlying creative restless rhythm of it all. In unfamiliar use of time and space, spontaneously moved by the mystery, I intend to welcome the awkward along with responsive and flowing satisfaction. I desire to inhabit and create new rhythms and responses. I wish to love my body and my life as is and as they become.
New Moon time is a magic portal for seeding the future. What do we intend to do about it?
My little, well-loved slice of cyber space is like a playground, a pillow for my head to dream upon, a public confessional for the sweetest secrets of my humanity. Thank you for visiting, whoever you are!