We're coming up on the annual New Moon in Leo. The fixed fire sign of the lion is ruled by the Sun. The Sun accounts for 99% of the mass in our solar system. Yes. Accounting for the combined mass of Earth and all the other planets, many of which are gas giants, it all makes up just 1%. And because atoms are 99% space, when it comes to Earth's human inhabitants, if you took out all of that space, out of all 7 billion of us or so combined, our matter would roughly fit inside of an orange.
Wow. Our middle-aged sun is also estimated to be 4.5 billion years old with another 5 billion years left. Our individual life span would not even register on that pie graph. All of the drama and perceived significance of our daily lives plays out inside of this grand mystery, on a relative scale so infinitesimal that is laughable, awesome, and freaky.
On this lunation we have the Sun conjunct Venus and the Moon and Mars all in Leo. All of these bodies are in the realm of the personal (as opposed to the outer, slower and more massive trans-personal planets) in the sign of individuation. I bring up the unfathomable scale of all that is and these cosmic perspectives because, with all these personality- and individual drama-centered themes going on, it can be healing to connect with the paradox of significance/insignificance, and feel a deep sense of wonder and curiosity about the very, very strange nature of existence, to touch upon the absurd.
But let's be honest. If you've been following local and world events right now, you probably do not need to consider the mind-boggling circumference of the Sun in order to feel some sense of comparative triviality. Pluto's (destruction, transformation, rebirth) passage through Capricorn (law, authority, institutions) and Neptune in it's own sign of Pisces (dissolution, confusion) are reflected in the current global state of affairs, our rapid arrival upon a steep ecological precipice and countless examples of societal dissolution and disillusionment.
They say the Milky Way consists of between 200 and 400 billion stars and at least 100 billion planets. There are an estimated 100 billion galaxies (and it is possibly, probably infinite). Our star will inevitably die and take this planet out with it. We are just the surface-dwellers of a planet that has experienced five known mass extinctions. Each of us lives within a closed-loop cycle of birth and death.
So what are we all doing here, riding this seemingly endless spiral path on spaceship Earth? This current moon cycle began in the waters of Cancer (sensitivity, intuition). The vessel of the moon, having achieved full flowering and illumination in Aquarius (idealism, humanitarian vision), incrementally poured out all her light over two weeks time and now she will take an empty pause in Leo (self-awareness, heart-centered expression).
This Leo/Aquarius spectrum very much relates to how we as a part (Leo) relate to the whole (Aquarius). I am not suggesting we need to "figure out" the meaning of our lives as they relate the larger picture. I hope the considerations I have drawn out in this post actually help us surrender the impulse to make sense of everything. Rather, this cycle's inaugural Cancerian energies ask us to take a dive beyond the rational mind into deeper sensing and feeling. Cancer has ties to the subconscious and irrational, and a knowing that cannot be explained. In the quiet of your mind, using your extraordinary powers of perception, zoom in or out - it doesn't matter which - as far as you possibly can. Feel the 37 trillion cells of your body, each with its own nuclear spark, it's specialized consciousness. How many whirring atoms is that? Sense the earth as a minute speck among 100 octillian - innumerable! - stars in the universe. Slip into that profound sense of being in love with life, your life and humanity, such as it all is. Because really, who knows what this is all about?
This new moon in Leo also kicks off the next cycle, which expresses through the energies of the Virgo/Pisces axis, very much associated with healing and sacred enchantment. Marinate in what inspires you and if motivations arise, do not worry about how you will go about expressing, accomplishing or completing them. Plant seeds and give them time to germinate, perhaps making smaller, symbolic gestures if it feels right. As the sun moves into practical, crafty Virgo, you will likely find yourself more resourced for real taking steps, or simply getting in touch with your processes and rituals. Another opportunity to love the uniqueness that is you (Leo)!
And the mystery of life just continues to unfold. I'll leave you with sweet words from the inspiring, exceptional Fiona Apple who reminds us that our only purpose here is to make our unique splash, become one distinct wave and "sink back into the ocean."
Happy new moon, everyone!
My little, well-loved slice of cyber space is like a playground, a pillow for my head to dream upon, a public confessional for the sweetest secrets of my humanity. Thank you for visiting, whoever you are!