WOOSH! Anybody else hit with powerful (even painful) insights and openings during that Full Moon in Gemini two weeks ago, and the first Saturn/Neptune square the day after? I couldn't write about it I just had to lean in to some profound discomfort and mind-bending happenings. And the hits just keep on coming... stretching my ability to love and giving me real opportunities to do so unconditionally. There were so many moments of unbearable tension and resistance and then... breakthrough. When I feel that inner chaos now, a part of me gets excited as more and more I recognize this for what it is: a sign that new tenderness and intimacy with life (Venus in Scorpio) is nigh.
In keeping with the themes of this New Moon, there is just too much to express. Jupiter rules Sagittarius and this augmenting force in Virgo speaks of overwhelming detail, beyond even Sagittarius' expansive sights. My intuition tells me we are all undergoing a serious realignment with our life force. But being un-apologetically you is going to trigger some folks, because there is no known point of reference for what you're bringing from your deepest core. From that place, you aren't worried about the unfairness of projections or making sure the other person understands or accepts what you (re)present. Rather, you can't help but commit to seeing yourself with sometimes excruciating honesty. At this point, a good laugh usually does the trick to deliver you into a humble and loving space. Sagittarius is learning to express its joy rather than seek it.
I cannot think of a more representative placement for the unique genius (Uranus) inherent to each self (Aries) than Uranus in Aries, which exactly opposes Mars in Libra around this New Moon and forms a T-Square to Pluto in Capricorn. It may feel mighty uncomfortable to not just be who we are, no shits given, this weekend. But not from a wounded place. Because Mercury, also in Capricorn, may tend towards becoming distant as a form of self-protection, if given the chance to commune with others. But its sextile to Neptune in Pisces and Venus in Scorpio offers the urge to express those buried treasures of self (Mercury in Capricorn) and truly marinate in the beauty of those around you. Moving towards compassionate "being with" (Neptune in Pisces) and true intimacy (Venus in Scorpio) - and the vulnerability that comes with it - we can finally topple outworn structures (Pluto in Capricorn) and channel the generative tension between adhering to our core (Uranus in Aries) while being amongst others - in relationship and even in conflict (Mars in Libra).
Aside from Jupiter in Virgo, every planet and astrological feature is found in the "upper" part of the chart for this New Moon. This speaks to showing up and risking being seen. I know this process of coming out with who you really are is pure magic. Saturn in Sagittarius trine Uranus in Aries speaks of making that initial commitment, which is the most difficult part. But then you speak and intuition fills what you thought would be blanks. More than likely, waves of self-consciousness will weave in and out as you keep on channeling. The peaking energy of excitement as you express what you never knew was inside of you can really trip you up too. Although - returning to this notion of inner treasure - if those momentary gems weren't so rare, would they be so valuable either?
So there you go. My little demonstration of bringing some more "me" out. Oscillating between awkwardness and crisply wrapped gifts. Fuzzy ideas forming a few points of relative interest. Ending too abruptly.
Happy New Moon in Sagittarius!
Last week's New Moon/Solar Eclipse in Virgo called up the theme of embodiment: the wonderment of being and the idea that existence is is ordered by the hand (or, rather, heart) of love. Kicking off next week with a First Quarter Square, we continue exploring physicality and the mysterious forces that move us as the Sun in Virgo squares the Moon in the sign of Sagittarius, the seeker. The yearning for experiences and truth that typifies this sign is like the inner impulse of the seed to emerge from its hard skin, instinctively compelled to the surface towards light. Cradling our New Moon intentions, we can engage the activating and agitating Sun/Moon square to clarify the source of what moves us in the world and in the moment. Saturn, having also entered Sagittarius as of late, also asks us to refine our inner core from whence action and engagement spring.
With regards to forces that stir and compel our being, materialism really has a hold on us. Beyond the desire for physical security and assurances, psychological materialism finds us avoiding feeling confused, incompetent or incorrect. The spiritual variety wards off intimate, direct realization or experience of the sublime in favor of escape or retreat from the very intense and ambiguous real. I am temporal. Existing in time means I am always unfinished. Embracing my existential condition with an open heart, I can radically loosen the grip of materialism. Each time I sit down to write, I open negotiations with my materialistic need to provide exacting and correct insight, to daringly deliver a satisfying bit of closure for myself and anyone who reads my work. My honest motivations are a blend of desire for self discovery, spiritual promptings and delusions of some big, wowwy finish.
My little, well-loved slice of cyber space is like a playground, a pillow for my head to dream upon, a public confessional for the sweetest secrets of my humanity. Thank you for visiting, whoever you are!