The New Moon in Libra happening this evening has me thinking about inter-subjectivity (a fancy word for being in relation) and about how our senses grant us privileged access to this world of relationship. In Chani Nicholas' Libra Moon write-up, she beautifully describes how our relationships bring us into greater intimacy with all aspects of our self, even trigger points and wounds. These Libra-specific lessons have been right on queue for me inter-personally, as I am sure you all are feeling this to one degree or another. Mutable and Cardinal T-squares overlap at this lunation, involving all of the outer planets, the Moon and the Sun. These pressurized formations can feel like clearing via painful extraction. With Saturn (heavy) and Pluto (deep) at the head of the Mutable and Cardinal T-squares, respectively, we may be in the midst of a super-gunky process.
When the Moon is new, it aligns with the Sun in our sky signaling both the start of a new cycle and a moment of balance, a very Libran quality. Libra is a Cardinal Air sign and this configuration speaks to me of the in-breath. Air is something we all share, regardless of the mystery of our differences. Even just a pause for slow, full breaths can smooth the ragged edges of any given moment. Air surrounds us as our internal spaces and cells surround air. Air is our very first gift of life, gathered from the outside world in our mother's lungs and delivered directly through her blood. The average person takes 17-30,000 breaths per day. Our blood circulates our body about three times per minute, traveling the distance of about four U.S. coast-to-coast trips in one day. You are an intricately wrapped series of invisible yet critical, constantly in motion, hundreds of thousands of cyclical journies of renewal.
These incomprehensible miracles of being are free for you to touch upon, especially if you are feeling down, under-appreciated or under-whelmed in the wings of this New Moon. Like air, our core self, the truth of who we know we are, is invisible. Not subject to rational understanding, it can be felt. Right now, if you shut your eyes or fold your hands you can feel the embrace of self. Lid upon lid, lip touching lip, sense and recover the potency of these small, subtle, taken-for-granted points of self-contact. As these intimate, complementary parts come together the senses simultaneously withdraw and you are inclined to turn inside. The bumps in the road of relationship point to those features in our internal landscape that we can witness with compassion, tenderness and love.
The upcoming Full Moon in Aries will be a Super Moon in the Northern Hemisphere, which means the Moon appears at its largest from Earth. The concurrent Lunar Eclipse will be best visible to us Arizonans at 7:47 p.m. (here's a nifty site to find maximum viewing times in your city). Every Full Moon opposes the Sun, thereby activating a pair of signs; for this lunation, the Aries/Libra channel is turned up. I can best describe the dance between these two poles as balancing the impulse, authority and uniqueness of our selves with the yearning to gel socially and environmentally and to belong. In Aries, we find the smoldering desire for self-actualization via understanding the instrument of our own being. In solitude, according to writer and social critic Thomas Mann, we can birth our original selves. And the Ram does enjoy its alone time. Yet if we carry a "blazing hearth in [our] soul" without sharing our warmth, the intense burn of our bottled up offerings can feel unbearable.
Countless creatives laud solitude as an essential key to knowing ourselves and earthing our genius. Personal projects flourish within a sacred space we create and where we give ourselves exactly what we need: quiet, inspiration, pampering, ritual or perhaps play. Willful Aries fully supports healthy boundaries and dedicated, vigorous pursuits (and fun play!). In solitude we are transformed. I feel fairly safe to say every path to spirit/realization includes some form of intentional seclusion. The root of alone is the Old English all ane, literally "all one." As we shift, expand and change, we will almost inevitably encounter resistance and misunderstanding in the outside world. To aspire to truth, integrity, and authenticity (all Aries values) requires the courage to be alone sometimes... or often. And not just physically. Even if we don't meet with outright rejection as we bring forth our uniqueness, we still struggle with these inexplicable realizations and the out-there but juicy and irreplaceable wisdom housed within each of us.
We experience all kinds of rejection in life which adds layers upon the social mask we wear. We cover and tame our truths, our enthusiastic hearts and our big dreams because it is too painful to bear their being dismissed or ridiculed. We buffer and dull the edge of our engagement with this world. The locus of connection where self meets other and world is Libra territory and the consequences of our surface-level engagement abound. Every "awesome!" "great!" or "amazing!" reflects how we are ultimately stuck, in fear, in the shallow end of the connection pool. This maybe sounds extreme; I myself respond superficially to life all.. the.. time and I don't feel like I'm in a constant state of fear paralysis. But think about it: the efficient, automated, soul-scant exchange dominates in our convenience-driven culture. To go deeper, we have to pry open and release ourselves from the mighty jaws of social conditioning and that takes tenacity and strength -not to mention vulnerability!
Our burning need to share is not satisfied by these fly-by interactions. We also see so much over-sharing because our landscape of connection is so very arid and stark. Aries is a sign of will. Without getting too esoteric, we can distinguish the motivations of our personality (typically in response or service to our self-image) and the subtle impulses of our seed of potential - the self to actualize - in this lifetime. Neither set of drives is "non-spiritual" or bad in any way. But moving from the promptings of our bliss or purpose carries a resiliency and positions us within a perspective that is sustaining regardless of external circumstances. And the best part is, because unfolding is a process and the full extent of it remains fixedly beyond us, we don't have to worry about any of the particulars! We just get to be ourselve
The Conscious Universe
I learned a little perspective-shifting technique that feels right to share (the origin of this practice escapes my memory so... sorry and thank you!) Imagine one hand is resting on your heart. Do not actually place your hand but use your imagination to feel it. Once you connect with that sensation, gently gaze at something in your environment. Simultaneously feel your heart awareness and perceive that what you are looking at is looking back at you. Though it is inanimate, sense its return gaze. The connection to your heart facilitates your recognition and reception of its consciousness. After some time with this practice - and I find it does take practice - you become increasingly aware that all of the universe is alive. Sitting in this recognition, external validation no longer really makes sense and it is near impossible to feel alone. Because the urge to share is fulfilled by the understanding that, down to the subatomic level, we share everything with everything; we can feel the interpenetrating flow of creative energy within all life.
Always there is more to say and better ways to say it... In closing, for now, I honor your/our solo/shared journey. Many blessings for this Super Moon/Full Moon in Aries!
Hello everyone! I had a beautiful post written about today's Fall Equinox and wouldn't you know it! Mercury in Retrograde taught me a big lesson in non-attachment. The post was overwritten somehow and is not recoverable. In fact, several of my recent life events have tested my ability to release what is beyond my control. Mercury the trickster wants to make extra sure that I am walking my talk at the Cycle Keeper, letting go of expectations and not attaching to outcomes.
From what I remember about what I wrote yesterday, I laid out the dynamic between the first part of a solar cycle - that burst of initial creativity and action - and the second half which begins at the Fall Equinox and takes us on an inward journey. For most of us the stretch and stress of hard work (spring/summer), challenging as it is, feels more comfortable than the intensity of self-inquiry (fall/winter). This shows up when we would rather pull a week of all-night productivity fests and feel accomplished than be with ourselves when we feel useless or discouraged. We may prefer a slew of exhausting social engagements over confronting a deeper loneliness. We can devour a handful of self-help books but might not want to get curious about why we feel we need fixing.
Take a moment on the Fall Equinox today or even tomorrow to appreciate your accomplishments and growth since the spring. Sink into some well earned satisfaction and feel out a few priorities that you wish to sustain and nurture through the coming seasons. Everything else, just let it go with a thank-you and a good-bye. One of the main reasons that stuff gets clingy in our system is that we crave external and tangible resolution. If we do not feel sufficiently validated, acknowledged or seen in our experience it can be difficult to release those threads. Let your awareness be enough and make formal amends with anything you know you no longer need to carry. Recapture loose energy and channel it towards your priorities, recommitting to yourself through winter and beyond!
Have a Happy Fall Equinox, everyone!
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