Welcome, to this week's flowering, Full Moon in Pisces. The mutable water sign is represented by two fish: one swimming up towards the expanse of the universe and the other, into the depths of the ocean. This symbolism evokes an inner tension, a longing we cannot fulfill for something.... we know not what. In The Matrix, Morpheus captures this restless quality of Pisces when he describes Neo's feeling that his reality is off beam. He cannot pinpoint exactly what is wrong, but "it is there, like a splinter in [his] mind," vexing him endlessly.
With Neptune in Pisces (disillusionment, forces beyond ourselves) conjunct this Full Moon, we may be asked to sit with an uncomfortable inner splinter or two. Unlike Neo, we have no Morpheus with his "red pill" to release us into truth. What's more, a full three-ring circus of socially-endorsed escapes and distractions beckons to us, promising that we'll feel more satiated and less alone. If only.
Opposite this Full Moon, the Sun and Jupiter in Virgo (work, service), call to mind the widespread dissatisfaction with deadening jobs and a quickening desire to do more with ourselves, our talents and our lives. We can recognize, at the same time, what a tremendous privilege it is to entertain a vocation with purpose and passion while the majority labors under conditions that crush mind, body and soul. In fact, in those moments when our hearts break wide open in compassionate acknowledgement of suffering, you can be sure that Pisces is present.
The Trans-Personal Realm
The wetiko-driven death march of our unsound institutional powers - which expect the social commons to endlessly absorb the precipitous costs of its global folly - is reflected in Pluto's passage through Capricorn (decay and destruction of large structures and institutions). Many of those who observe and write about this phenomenon take the collective expression of self-destructive inhumanity and point it back to our individual psyches, suggesting that we examine where greed, power-lusting and fear-based control mechanisms exist in ourselves. The idea being, that our smaller, individual darkness feeds the larger, rampant shadow of humanity as a whole.
While I do not entirely disagree with this "as-above-so-below, as-within-so-without" prescription for more individual shadow work, it all sounds pretty palliative to me. This is the realm of the trans-personal planets (Pluto, Neptune), with influences both diffuse and incorporeal. For a society that craves certainty and control as we do, this tends to make us anxious. Our wonted reaction to trans-personal forces is to try and distill them down to a manageable, personal project. We are deeply relieved by the feeling that we are "doing something" about any of it. We react and brace ourselves in preference to standing naked as nature, constantly anguished but bonded to existence by unconditional love. Not a love that appeases and makes us feel better, but a soul-making, world-rocking, cut-to-the-core love, like the "fierce embrace" of life in David Whyte's "Self Portrait".
On this Full Moon, can we approach the trans-personal from beyond an "if-then" construct, and keep the dizzying, heart-rending paradox of our terrible, wonderful world in play? Can we expose our vulnerable bellies to heat of fierce intimacy with life itself, not fully knowing what that sacred relationship might ultimately require of us? To this end, I want to mention the fiery, courage-gifting trine happening between Uranus in Aries (individuality, personal genius) and Mars/Venus in Leo (creative desire and action) during this Pisces Full Moon. Spiritual concepts and noble ideals are essentially meaningless if not expressed through the uniqueness of a human being, tied to their irreproducible set of experiences. You - whatever you truly are - have traveled through space and time to be here now. Each person is like a precious, one-of-a-kind chemical with the potential to mix and react with the chaos of the current world scene and thereby produce unfathomable results! It is my personal belief that engaging with an open heart*, allowing ourselves to be "triggered," sets this reaction in motion.
You, the Sunbeam
Our earth is about seventy-percent ocean with depths averaging over ten-thousand of feet. The rays of the Sun cannot penetrate the surface of water below several hundred feet. This means that the vast majority of our planet is in a state of total darkness. As an analogy to the themes I have been exploring in this post, we are like the individual rays of sunlight. Though we maybe cannot (or even should not) hope to address the entire ocean of darkness, we still cannot but shine our light.
The sunlit surface of the ocean, known as the euphotic zone, accounts for two-thirds of the photosynthetic activity on earth. Organic life critically depends on this relatively tiny sweet spot where water meets light! Forget about "saving the world" and know that, in your small way, the sunbeam of you sustains this perfect, inexplicable balance of everything that is. Venture as deep as you can. Know that the meeting place between light and great depth is life-enhancing and exquisitely fertile. Allow the mystery and FEEL! And have a phenomenal Full Moon in Pisces!
*Countless teachers and healers are working today to bring forth their heart-centered approach to life. One of my particular favorites is Matt Kahn and his Love Revolution work. I recommend exploring the unprecedented teachings that are readily available to us today. It is fantastic hear and be touched by a great message. At the same time, one of the best ways to honor of the extent of labor required to bring forth these messages is to take the advice of another brilliant and prolific teacher I love, Christina Pratt, who continuously calls us to be moved into action.
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